10 years ago today I walked down the aisle and
committed the rest of my life to a man I had only known seven months! A decade
later I am convinced now more than ever that (with the exception of having made
the decision to accept Christ as my Savior) it was the best decision of my
life!
Now, if you've read my blog at all you know I am
not about painting pretty pictures and leaving out the gory details! :-) It has
not always been butterflies and roses in this relationship. In fact we didn't
actually hit the honeymoon phase until about year seven! The very morning of
our wedding began with a monsoon! And our very first moments alone as husband
and wife was me pushing him away as he tried to kiss me saying "I think
I'm going to throw up!" :-) That's what I get for jumping into the back of
a limo and going down the winding back roads of Maryland completely ignoring
the fact that I get carsick!
The Honeymoon itself was nice, but it was in the
airport of St. Lucia waiting for our flight home that we had our very
first little tiff. The fact is he was insensitive and I was insecure. We really
were quite a pair. :-)
Our first three years were an uphill battle,
mostly because I had so much emotional issues that I had kept hidden from the
world for so long and now that he was ALWAYS THERE I couldn't hide it
any longer, so he had to come to the unfortunate realization
that the strong, confident, positive, independent woman he had married was
a horrendous mess on the inside, emotionally insecure, incredibly defensive and
in a continual battle with self-disgust.
Without a doubt the absolute best decision we
made, which truly saved our marriage happened before we were ever
married. Thanks to having been raised in Christian homes, with Christian
(still married...to each other) parents we too entered into marriage
as the sacred covenant that it is and made a commitment that divorce did
not exist. We promised each other we would never say the word. Not even in
gist. Because of that decision our marriage, though rocky, was a safe place
where we knew, no matter how hard it was, we could work through whatever came
our way. Neither of us were afraid to deal with the issues we had
to tackle head-on because there was no fear of being left. We knew we were
stuck with each other! :-)
So we worked it out, talked it out, and prayed it
out, and it is because of those tough first years that our marriage is strong
and awesome today! There's still plenty of work to be done because there's
always work to be done when it comes to relationships, but it is worth every
single bit of effort.
Tim is an incredible husband and an amazing
daddy. He is my provider, my protector, my lover, and my
best friend. We have come so far, and I know without a doubt, through whatever
highs and lows may come our way, with the love we have and standing in the
strength given to us by the Lord, our marriage will stand firm. As the
scripture we used in our wedding says..."a threefold cord is not easily
broken." (Me, Tim, and God holing us together!)
When we give our broken pieces to the Lord He can
turn them in to an incredible love story! I am so thankful for how much I
have learned and how much we have both grown over these last 10 years. To
God be the glory!
